Ok, Kami, I can understand why you hate him, and you don’t understand why i can’t get over him. And its just, everyday when i see him, it’s like i love him all over again. Then im forced to think about our memories. How happy he made me. Im basically fighting myself. I love him but he hurt me so bad that i hate him. It’s unexplainable. Nobody understands it. He has affected me so much and i wish i just hadn’t ever met him. Every day of my life i regret walking into sewing class. And im sorry. He shouln’t be dragging you into this. I haven’t texted him. Haven’t talked to him so idk why he is doing this and im sorry.
Okay, Hailey. I feel bad i’m pushing you away from Matan but i just don’t get how you like him after what he did to you? He called you a bitch! I just don’t get it! I feel horrible saying all of this but why don’t you just get over him? Stop making tumblr posts about him! BLOCK HIS NUMBER!!!! PLEASE!!! He yells at me in the hall! one time he wouldn’t let me get to my class and it was after gym and he was all sweaty and i was already really late for class. I got a demarite because of him! Please Hailey stop! For my and your sake S T O P! I’m so sorry but please listen!
Ok, kami. A few things number one: it’s spelled assault. #spelling nerd. And your post made me cry. Because honestly I feel like I’m just letting you down. I will not let you drown. Ok!? I don’t care if i have to work until my fingertips are raw, I will fix as many broken cracks in your life as I can. I will fix what I can. Challenge number one: find a man fo kam. Lol it’s a rhymer:) I will scan for hotties. See how it goes. Challenge number two: fix what I messed up: kami, I will get rid of matan, ONCE AND FOR ALL. I’m blocking his number. Never talking to him again. And I will fix us. We will hang out more. I guess I haven’t been there for you as much as I should have. I never really ask how you are doing and…. I’m sorry. That must feel like crap. I guess I’ve been kinda busy lately and I forgot to see how you were doing. Your life must be like digging for gold in dirt. Hard, frustrating, and hard to do. And I will take that into consideration more often I promise. I will work as long as it takes. If I have to work until I’m dead, I will make you happy. I love you. More than words can explain. And I wanna show you. I will show you. I swear.
I feel like the world is making me feel like this. Im about to literally explode. Nothing in my life is in control. Love life, single and needinghim.School: trying to make balanced but just cant get the grades i want. family: fight every single day, money: HORRIBLE! Mom relationship:okay… Dad relationship: dont even get me started….. friends: cant keep them happy… anything else: horrible! so yeh seems like that depression rock climbed back aboard and now seems like 2 boalders on my feet, 2 boalders underneath my eyes, a huge boalder in my heart, and one giganitic one in my lungs/health! so yyeeaaa not good… plus mine an haileys friendship is getting a little worse but got way better after the a s s u l t…. but got way worse because of drama stupid queen matan jurk! so yeh my life is falling apart!
My dad said he was going to call me but i never got anything. I havnt talked to him sinceMarch,AND ITSMAY!I try not to hate him unlike my sisters but its really hard. I didnt learn how to ride a bike untill i was like 11 because of him! I waited because he said he would teach me but i was fed up of being embarrassed and i just taught myself! Im sorry dad but im fed up with waiting for you. Im done. You wont make me cry anymore. I try not to hate but its to hard… Im sorry.
When I get older i want to be something that requires a lot of typing. I love to type and I’m pretty good at it. My mom says most jobs with typing are corporate jobs that pay well so, i think typing might get me somewhere in life. Lol now i shall go on to randomly rant. Lol. Picky uppy. picky uppy. Churches. Bwa i have no religion. Blahblah. Okieee so science is grody i have to disect a cow eye tomorrow. EWW. I have science right after lunch too. bwaaa. It’s gonna be so flippin discusting. EWWWIIEEE. Haha typing stuff is so fun. Yay. So like, im listening to this song that is my ringtone so for a second i thought my phone was ringing….. blonde moment. I have lots of those. By the way, i am a tall blonde, white, tan arms, dont ask how that works it just does. I dunno, i have freckles, a fake smile, cray-z teeth. Lol nobody spells crazy like cray-z. HAhahaha. Kami is a kinda short, black hair, mexican, funny, and prettyyy awesome. Cutie, a cute nose. A little crazy but in a good way. Ranty rant rant rant. Bwaa. Im listening to such wierd music. Now im listening to covers. Lol imma wear a skirt tomorrow, hey, why not?
So this is one of my random rants. So in school we are focusing on writing about contraversial topics. I found one to be particularly interesting. It is about whether or not should kids have phones. Personal opinion, children under 9 or 10 shouldn’t have cellphones. But i believe many things would be harder if i didn’t have a cellphone. BWA pancakes are good. Why do so many people not like pancakes??? The teachers in my hall are really mean. My L.A. teacher told a girl she was never going to graduate and grow up to get a career and family just because she didn’t have 3 homework assignments. I honestly think that it should be limited what teachers can say to students. Cause thats hurtful. I had ravioli. It was ok. My stomach hurts and im tired. Blah. I hate stomachaches. SO much. like. seriously. im gonna go color with sharpies. PEACE OUT HOMEDOGGIES.
Ok, so ever since i was little i believed in the idea that for every person out there, there is another person. Now, god has made a game out of love, because in a growing population of approximately 6 billion people we have to find the one that is made for us. Somehow he has made it possible. Some people have a hard time with this. I think thats why some people don’t find love early. The right person hasn’t found them yet. I don’t get too stressed over a breakup, because it brings you one step closer to finding the one you are made for. I want to find this person. I know i will go through a lot of people before i find him but i can feel it….. he is out there somewhere.
OK the post about the people in your world. The last part almost made me cry (a little cause im tired) It made me realize how much you mean to me, and i mean to you. You made me realize the things im good at. Your Awesome about, being a friend, being a girlfriend, being a bro, understanding, and accepting. All the things you need to be. I love you so much baby you will NEVER know…
